an update.

I have been on the new eating plan for about a month now. Last week was the first straight seven days I felt that I had good eating habits. I still stumble every now and then, but I am focused on the whole journey rather than every little decision I make. If I try to deprive myself of everything that I think is bad for me, I will not last very long. Instead, I try to focus on the big picture and see where I can be a year from now if I make small changes that will add up in the long run.

When I eat like crap, I feel like crap. I feel so guilty that I don't even like to look at myself in the mirror because I feel so ugly. On the flip side, when I eat healthy, I feel thinner. I know that probably isn't possible and it must be some allusion, but it doesn't matter. What matters is that I feel better, prettier, stronger. I can look at myself in the mirror and tell myself I am not where I want to be yet, but I am getting there, and that is good.